Monday, April 23, 2007

Mama & Ayah?

Date : 9 Novermber 2005

On 1 fine wednesday morning...hubby dah siap-siap belikan UPT for me to test..tapi, I'm just soooo not ready..even dalam hati rasa macam pregnant kot aku nih! but, sometimes u can't get what u wish for right...so, since I'm going back to work tomorow after cuti raya...better I took the risk & buat test tu! Takut sangat nak tengok...siap kejut hubby bangun suruh tengokkan sebab rasa macam tak percaya jer bila nampak 2 clear lines...Ya Allah, betullah aku pregnant la! You've answered me...Amin..Alhamdulillah...Terus pegi klinik to double check and confirmed the pregnancy...Doktor cakap, congratulations & you're 6 weeks pregnant...

My EDD : 26 June 2006

Ramadhan & Syawal yang Membawa Seribu Keberkatan

Ramadhan 2005 telah berlalu..well, aku puasa penuh this year. Syawal pun disambut macam biasa ... Most people told me that I might be pregnant since my menstrual is 2 weeks late. But, i'm not hoping for it ... takut frust lagi...so, just continue my life & my raya celebration as usual. But, the weird things is I'm starting to feel awful everytime I saw food...alamak, camner nak raya kalau camni? Dah segala rendang, ketupat tu rasa semacam jer tengok! Aku rasa macam food tu nak makan aku balik...errrr...so weird!! And another sign, I'm feeling uncomfortable to wear my baju raya...well, it was my choice and now it seems that I really hate the baju...waaaaa..what's wrong with me...

Last but not least is, I'm starting to vomit everytime I'm eating...harus kurus diriku! And the unexpected is my hamster is giving birth to 6 babies...hmmm...kenapa yer!!

Journey to get a baby?

It was a long journey and a half years efforts....haaaa...hambik situ..lama giler! The story starts with:

1. Traditional method

We was being recommended by MIL to this bidan kampung. So, just had an appointment with her .. She said that I should get myself a massage since my womb is high...cam mana nak explain peranakan tinggi in english? so, 3 kali berturut-turut this nenek massage my stomach..and gave me air kunyit to drink...yaghhhh...sungguhla tak sedap rasanya..tak larat nak minum tapi hubby tunggu kat sebelah...minumla yang!! waaaaa....nak nangis...bitter taste..bitter memory..oklah, nak anak punye pasal....

2. Modern method

I've registered ourself at LPPKN...So, had to wait alomost 7 mths to get an appointment...lama betul!! macam-macam test dia bagi kat aku & hubby...last but not least, the gynae told me that I might be suffering from polysistic ovary...hmmm, research..research...the gynae recommended me to undergo for treatment & straightly IUI...Well, didn't think too much at that time .. strongly agreed...Tapi, when the times for IUI comes, telur masih tak matured & had to drop off the trial..Melalak-lalak lagi aku hari tu...Hubby cakap it's OK..kita cuba lagi after this...I'm really stressed, terus malas nak pegi...

3. Herbs method

This is our last resort...chinese herbs & medication...jalan-jalan kat shopping mall, terserempak dengan 1 chinese lady jual madu lebah & macam-macam barangan dari lebah...so, she suggested us to try madu lebah (original) and bee pupa..taste like keropok but it's not good as keropok...me & hubby makan, jadikan daily routine...finally, comes ramadhan 2005...

More happy stories to share....

Children for Me?

Well, frankly ..when everybody around me is speaking about their children, I'm really stressed out so I've to chickened away from them. It's just because, that I didn't pregnant after almost 2 years of marriage. Aku mula salahkan diri. Every menstrual, comes along with deraian air mata..Sedih sangat-sangat sehinggakan aku rasa memang Tuhan takkan bagi anak pada kami. I can't bear to look at my hubby face...his eyes reminds me that he just want...much..much want the kid of his own...Orang mula bercerita and berkata...Yah, it was a difficult part actually...Am I wrong? I didn't take any birth control pills before...I didn't say that I dont want any children..it's just not the right time for me to have a baby..agaknyalah! my hubby always encourage me..don't worry..maybe we're just not ready for it so Tuhan didn't want to burden us...maybe...but I'm really stressed out...

Yayyyy...habis DPA Course

Yayyy for me..alhamdulillah dengan jayanya dah habis the course...so, I can continue my masters degree in UM...it's almost 3 years and still can't finish it...sedih betullah aku! And also continue my work in SPTB...well, I really miss my work station...hehehehe...and my life as a wife to my hubby..Anyway, thanks abang for understand me a lot! I really love you...Lepas ni, kita work on how to get your own children pulak, kay!! hehehehe.....

Sad..sad..and Sad..

Rezeki kerja sudah terjawab..rezeki anak belum lagi nampaknya...it was very sad bila tengok orang yang kahwin lambat dari kitorg pun dah pregnant..and we still berdua..tapi, I've to plan too since I've to go to my 6 moths PTD course..ada kursus tentera, polis, bomba and bla..blaa..blaa...insyallah lepas jer kursus, kami akan berusaha kuat...tapi, rupanya banyak cabaran dan dugaan nye yer...hmm....sob...sob...

My 1st Day as Government Officers

Lepas je tau berjaya, aku dihantar kursus kat INTAN Sg Petani for 2 weeks. Course name : PTD Unggul...

habis jer PTD Unggul, my first ministry is Kementerian Tanah & Pembangunan Koperasi (now it was Sumber Asli & Alam Sekitar). My job description : surat-menyurat, minit mesyuarat, kertas kerja and bla..bla..Started to enjoy my work...

Interview As Government Servants

Susah rupanya nak jadi government servants nih..interview dia bukanlah susah, but the interviewer tu macam saja-saja nak provoke kita..
My 1st interview - as PSM (Peg.Sist.maklumat) : I've answered everything about database, computers & so on excellently...tapi, bila dia tanya on monarchy system...alamak, blur habislah..tak tau langsung! so, at the end of the day I know that I didn't make it. My instinct told me...

My 2nd interview - as PTD : I've going thru the assessment centre and was chosen to undergo for the interview. Interviewer sangat baik. Tak banyak sangat yang ditanya, many questions was about the things I knew...hmm, I'm relieved! But, the question that I remember about K3P...Kump Pembaca, Pendengar & Penyampai if I'm not mistaken..masa tu mana ada lagi K3P tu..aku beria-ria jer menjawab..chewah, macam la terer sangat...

But alhamdulillah, rezeki kahwin kata orang...I've got the job as PTD..and I've no idea on earth of what is this job is about..camner tuh??

Result Exam PTD

3 months after the exam, the result was released thru the net. Woww...I'm passed and have to join assessment centre. Without any information on that, blindly & bluntly I was there in Intan Jalan Ilmu. Meet many friends...Had to join for 3 days full of rest & stress...kenapa ye stress? ooo...sebab aku tak tau ape kriteria yang dikehendaki untuk jadik seorang PTD. Dahlah aku tengah frust sebab tak boleh jawab elok-elok masa interview untuk jawatan PSM...I'm a CS graduate, off course I'm looking forward to that IT, programming kind of jobs...So, masa assessment, I give my best...Hubby cakap, mana tau kot rezeki aku kat sini...so, just give it a try...Kalau dapat, alhamdulillah..kalau tak dapat, tak rugi..but it was an experiences to me...

Sunday, April 22, 2007

Note 5 - Exam PTD

29 May 2003 - I've to sit for PTD exam. Never came across my mind nak jadi PTD. Tapi, just test my luck...manalah tau ada rezeki since my contract with UM is going to over soon, by next March 2004...So, pegilah kat High School Setapak..dengan inai yang masih merah di jari...feewitt..aku baru kahwin lah! With my full effort and heart, aku jawab all the 5 papers...Resultnya...insyallah nanti akan ku beritahu..

Note 4 - HoneyMoon

If this is what we called honeymoon then it would be like that...the reason, me & hubby didn't planned to go anywhere at all after the kenduries..dengan letihnya, nak berkemas lagi...all of us once heard of the proverbs raja sehari kan...so, u can always be a king sehari only...on that day, makan pun boleh bersuap...ni kes tengah pakai inai kat jari lah ni!! then, with the kuali, periuk...mak aih! we've to settle it ourselves!

Then, on one fine wednesday, 21 May 2003...hubby asked me to go some place where we can relax our mind & body...it's not about romantika d'amor orang baru lepas kahwin..well, I admit..its one the agenda ..but it's more to relax, to keep cool...so, kitorang pegi PD ..yang paling dekat sekali...we've stayed in one room apartment - sunshine apartment for a week ... equipped with dapur, kuali, periuk and bla..bla.. stay kat tingkat paling tinggi...tingkat 12..aku dah ler gayat...terasa melayang2 jer..tapi, best since we can enjoy the ocean view..and then ada lak swimming pool...so, everyday..morning we went to the sea...afternoon, we went into the pool, night went to jalan jalan cari makan area PD...so good... we're very lucky because that time is not school holidays nor public holidays...so, senanglah lodging...

and more good news to come...eh, aku tak pregnant pun after the huney moon...not expecting in waktu terdekat!

Note 3 - Alam Perkahwinan

Date : 16 May 2003
Time : 5pm (after Asar )

hatiku berbunga-bunga or is it there's a flower inside my heart? should check with my proverbs dictionary...today is our wedding day...i'm going to be a bride to my bridegroom-to-be...eh, aku nak jadi isteri oranglah! aku yang ganas dan tak glemer langsung ni nak jadi isteri orang...it was hard for me to imagine myself in a wifey shoes...can I be good wife? and can my darling be a good husband for me?

Harapan ku for this wedding:

1. To be a good wife..
2. To get a good husband...

Semoga Tuhan akan merestui dan merahmati kehidupan kami pada hari ini dan seterusnya. Dan semoga jodoh ini akan berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat kami nanti.

From inside my pengantin room, off coursela my mum had to prepare everything for me..kalau nak ikutkan aku ni, takde bilik-bilik pengantin nih...aku tau aper... I've heard the aqad nikah ... Abah yang nikahkan aku..hmm...terasa sedih di hati...sebab tak sampai seminit, aku dah jadi milik orang lain...If before I've had to obey my parents, now it's time I've to add another person in my obedient list...betul ke ape yang aku merepek nih! so, sah lah aku menjadi isteri kepada suamiku...

kenduri was being held for 3 days...16 may - nikah, 17 may - kenduri in my place, 18 may - kenduri in hubby place...after all the 3 kenduries, aku pengsan..letih oooo....kena mekap-mekap tu ingat tak letih ke??

Note 2 - Alam Pertunangan

Date : 6 October 2002

I'm engaged...to someone I love..We've engaged...we've engaged...I couldn't believe this...Tak sangka sungguh, ada jugak orang yang sanggup share his life dengan aku...Aku ni dahla tak reti romantik-romantik...tak glemer..but, he's still accept me...and of course la I'm also accepting him...

A day before the engagement...aku kena keje la pulak! Everybody is membebel at me...the original planning was, engagement date is on 5 October but since it was a working day for me...had to postpone it next day! But, it was only engagement...bukannya nikah pun...Time nikah nanti, i'm going to finish my cuti rehat....huh, its worth kan??

Note 1 - Alam Baru Bermula

I met with my hubby-to-be in 6 March 1999...while I was doing my practical training in KL for 6 months. How we met? Hmmm....it was Cinta IRC...my hobby is chatting..and I've met a lot of people through this relay chat...Everything went smoothly well...the relationship well, is not burden me since I can handle between this 2 - my study (next sem. will be my final sem & I'm going to do a lot of work regarding my project, thesis, bla...bla...and blaa.....) and our relationship. At first it was PJJ lah, I'm in south of Malaysia & he is in KL...It was a very good & beautiful experiences for me since I've never had any love affair before...huh, cinta monyet adalah...cinta dewasa ... never! What I was thinking before is, aku nak belajar...bukan nak bercinta...Nah, I'm doing well in my studies & I should move on with my life kan? Semua orang ada rasa nak bercinta & dicinta kan...