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Note 46 - Tag Mentag

2009-03-03T21:01:00.000-08:00

Hari ni nak update sikit aje..actually, lately few of my friends have been tagging me on this and that...and from that much, I can only respond for one or two..masa menghambat diriku sekarang ok!! This is one of the issue that I respond for..My Ist Born..Seronok juga kan??

Here you go mommies - a different kind of survey for a change - it's all about your first (or only) born! Just copy and paste it in a new note for yourself! If I sent it to you, it means I want to hear your story.

1. WAS YOUR FIRST PREGNANCY PLANNED?
Yesssss...2 and half yrs of hard work tau...(not so subur la...plus minus the dpa course, my mcs thesis)

2. WHAT WAS YOUR 2ND CHOICE NAME OR YOUR OPPOSITE GENDER NAME:
the 1st and always name was iman..then thought of adding aufa or aufi...for girls should be iman sofeya or iman shasha (hubby hates this name..sound like shasha saidin (elite) ..apa daa)

3. WHAT WERE YOUR REACTIONS?
soooooo happy...plus the crying loud aloud with hubby...and all the airmata dramas..can't imagine ok!!

4. HOW OLD WERE YOU?
pregnant at 28, a mommy at 29.

5. HOW DID YOU FIND OUT YOU WERE PREGNANT?
of course using tell'n'dip la kan..

6. WHO DID YOU TELL FIRST?
Hubby...sah2 dia kat sebelah time buat urine test..no need to tell, see with your own 2 eyes la kan...

7. DID YOU WANT TO FIND OUT THE SEX?
of course since never had any instinct...

8. DUE DATE?
2nd July 2006

9. DID YOU HAVE MORNING SICKNESS?
morning sickness was my friend...di mana ada aku, di situ ada morning sickness...

10. WHAT DID YOU CRAVE?
nasi lemak bungkus & sambal ikan bilis, pengat pisang & ikan bilis masak tempoyak with condition - cooked by my mom / mom in law (giler pemalas!!)...very melayu my selera kan...

11. WHO/WHAT IRRITATED YOU THE MOST?
dapur masak..hate to cook even boiling water..rasa nak minum air panas, hubby tolong boilkan...wahhh..so ngada-ngada laa...

12. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CHILD'S SEX?
A healthy baby boy.

13. DID YOU WISH YOU HAD THE OPPOSITE SEX ?
nope, maybe for the 2nd one...

14. HOW MANY POUNDS DID YOU GAIN THROUGHOUT THE PREGNANCY?
a lot lot lot, and still having them ;(

15. DID YOU HAVE A BABY SHOWER?
nope...

16. WAS IT A SURPRISE OR DID YOU KNOW?
there wasn't any pun.

17. DID YOU HAVE ANY COMPLICATIONS DURING YOUR PREGNANCY?
i'll consider my constipation problem, gastric as complications la kot..

18. WHERE DID YOU GIVE BIRTH?
Damai Hospital, Melawati.

19. HOW MANY HOURS WERE YOU IN LABOR?
2 hrs .. 12pm into the labour room, 1.56pm..the baby coming..

20.WHO DROVE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?
My hubby

21. WHO WATCHED YOU GIVE BIRTH?
My hubby as well.

22. WAS IT NATURAL OR C-SECTION?
Natural birth with forceps assist.

23. DID YOU TAKE MEDICINE TO EASE THE PAIN?
nobody offered me..just curious then i'd spoke to one of the nurse, why don't u offered me one? nurse tu jawab, buat apa..akak sihat aje...boleh jalan2 lagi..

24. HOW MUCH DID YOUR CHILD WEIGH?
a healthy 3.4 kg with 56 cm height!

25. WHEN WAS YOUR CHILD ACTUALLY BORN ?
1.56 pm on 23 June 2006 (23 - go beckham...goooo)

26. WHAT DID YOU NAME HIM/HER?
Iman Shabil

27. HOW OLD IS YOUR FIRST BORN TODAY?
2 yrs & 8 mths on 23 Feb 2009

28. WOULD YOU DO IT AGAIN?
DEFINITELY!! should by right now...tp belum ada rezekilah!!

Note 45 : Hari yang Gelap

2009-02-10T21:55:00.000-08:00

Kenapa minggu ni aku terasa mandom saje..sebab dah terlalu manja dengan cuti yang banyak atau ...? buat kerja pun terasa serba tak kena aje...adakah sebab kena marah dengan ksu (yes..one of the factor), kerja banyak atau ... ? Waaaaarghhhhh..kena marah dengan ksu...tak suke..tak suke...

Note 44 - Kadang2 kesian jugak...

2008-12-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

Lama dah rasanya tak update blog ni...no time + malas menyerang dirilah...sejak-sejak transfer ke new department ni, selalu balik lewat..kerja banyak but enjoyed it..here, I've learnt a lot of new things and most of all, learn how to handle people under my supervision.
Early in this morning, tengah2 berperang dengan rasa lapar sebab kafe tak buka hari ni dan sedang sibuk dengan kerja-kerja yang terbabas selepas Aidiladha, telefon atas meja berdering-dering..tak angkat nanti salah pulak, sebab pekeliling suruh angkat sebelum 3 kali deringan..so, angkat telefon dan dengar suara wanita...mula2 she can control herself, tapi lama-lama dengar pulak bunyi menangis..sungguh kesian dan simpati...rupanya nak menceritakan kisah suami who was under my department yang ada skandal dengan perempuan lain. Actually, I'm not aware at all about this guy and the perempuan..kalau betul hang nak kahwin, kahwinlah as long as tugas2 di pejabat terlaksana...but, what makes me sad is his wife was on her confinement period..their 2nd baby was just 2 mths old and yet the father is doing some bullshit perangai here in the office..mulalah rasa nak tempeleng aje this guy..but after a long sigh..terus teringat..kalau bertepuk sebelah tangan, takkan berbunyikan...Sunguh tak faham kenapa ada perempuan yang sanggup hancurkan hati wanita lain. Maybe isterinya ada salah, suami pun cari alasan untuk cari lain, yang perempuan yang satu tu tak rasa bersalah ke..kalaupun tak bersalah untuk isteri mamat tu at least respek lah sikit hak anak2 orang tu...ini dah le tak balik, duit nafkah pun tak bagi..itu belum kahwin lagi tu, kalau dah kahwin satu lagi? silap2 rupa ayah pun anak tak kenal..sungguh hampehla ini dua jantan & betina...so, apa yang perlu aku buat agaknya? campur atau tak?
Boss cakap if you can stand the people, then you can stand anyhting else in the world..Ye kot!!
The conclusion is, it was very hard to educate people...I have to put myself in their shoed..aiyohh...sungguh susah to fit it another people shoes especially for someone who wore size 10 like me...ahahahaha...

Note 43 - Ketibaan...

2008-10-16T21:57:00.000-07:00

Semalam, 16 Oktober 2008...

Pembantu yang ku tunggu telah tiba. Berdebar juga memikirkan bagaimana orangnya. Harapanku supaya dia boleh menjaga anak kecilku dengan baik. Membantu urusan-urusan rumahtangga yang tidak berkesempatan untuk dibuat. Tetapi, memasak tetap tugas utamaku. Mungkin si pembantu akan kuberi tugas-tugas penyediaan sebelum memasak sahaja.

Hari ini, 17 Oktober 2008...

Hari ini aku merasa lega. Kebanyakan tugas-tugas rumahtangga telah diselesaikan oleh dia. Aku cuma memikirkan untuk memasak sahaja. Walaupun, anak kecilku dijaga kakak, panggilan Iman kepada dia, sekurang-kurangnya biarlah anakku masih menikmati air tangan mamanya sebagai pengisi perutnya.

Esok, 18 Oktober 2008...

Aku tak pasti lagi apa akan terjadi. Semoga pembantu ini akan membantuku dengan baik sepertimana yang aku harapkan.

Note 42 - Kenapa Susah Sangat...

2008-10-14T20:38:00.000-07:00

Aku mempunyai cita-cita...salahkah jika aku bercita-cita...sebenarnya, salah satu wishlist aku untuk 2008 ialah untuk membeli sebuah rumah untuk diriku...atas namaku...sebagai penghargaan untuk diri sendiri for all the efforts I've put through all this year...tetapi, rumah yang kuidamkan bukanlah seperti rumah-rumah yang biasa dibeli dan diduduki oleh ibu bapa atau kawan-kawan yang ada...aku mengidamkan sebiji kondo...yeahhh...kondo...makanya berusahalah aku untuk mencari sebuah kondo..kenapa ye aku menginginkan kondo?

kondo mempunyai pak guard...hehehehe...aku mementingkan keselamatan keluargaku...aku tidak mahu sesiapa bebas mengetuk pintu rumahku di saat tiada siapa di rumah, cuma ada anak kecilku dan pembantu sahaja...
kondo ada swimming pool dan tempat riadah...bebas untuk aku membawa anak kecilku turun berenang dan bermain di dalam kawasan rumah...
kondo biasanya terletak dalam kawasan yang tenang dan jauh dari hiruk-pikuk...aku sukakan kawasan yang damai...tetapi aku juga sukakan kesibukan kota seperti Kuala Lumpur...makanya lokasi yang sesuai ialah di kawasan pinggir Kuala Lumpur...
kondo selalunya merupakan sebuah kawasan yang kurang padat...maksudku ialah ia tidak terlalu compact seperti yang biasa dilihat di kawasan perumahan teres di mana kereta-kereta diletak di luar rumah, di hadapan rumah orang lain dan sebagainya...
aku tak perlu potong rumput dan jaga kebersihan kawasan luar rumah di kondo itu nanti...

atas sebab-sebab yang dituliskan itulah, hatiku amat senang untuk memilih sebuah kondominium sebagai tempat tinggalku...tetapi, sebaik aku menyuarakan hasratku..semua orang telah memberi pelbagai pendapat...antara yang aku dengar ialah:

beli kondo ni membazir - kenapa membazir? itu rumah juga, aku boleh sewakan atau jual dengan harga yang tinggi satu hari nanti jika aku mahu...
beli mahal2 tapi takda tanah - kenapa tanah? bukankah telah disiapkan sedikit tanah untuk kita di satu masa nanti?
kondo ni takda tempat parking kereta - siapa kata? kebanyakan rumah2 teres hari ini pun tiada parking kereta...sebab tu di kawasan rumah mak aku, kereta parking di tepi2 jalan hingga membahayakan pengguna jalan kerana kawasan agak sesak dan sempit...

jadi, aku merasa sangat sakit hati dengan pendapat2 begini...kenapa susah sangat orang mahu faham kehendakku? wang yang akan dikeluarkan adalah wangku? jadi kenapa susah sangat? kenapa? kenapa? aku sudah bertekad...

Note 41 - Suka kaa happy kaa...

2008-10-07T22:42:00.000-07:00

Finally, dah separuh matlamat tercapai...matlamat asal masih belum dilunaskan...kena tunggu lagi...tapi, agak happy dengan situasi sekarang..lebih seronok..lebih mmuah...mmuah...

Note 40 - Stress..Pressure...Tertekan...

2008-09-04T05:06:00.000-07:00

It has been 2 months since I've moved in here..Well, the house and the area are very nice and peaceful...but...the office environment is just so-so..tak tahulah kalau akak aje yang tak boleh suit in..entahlah..banyak perkara yang sempat diperhatikan sepanjang 2 mths...banyak sangat..and sudddenly, akak rasa macam nak melompat minta balik KL...I'm just not ready to be here...rasa macam terlalu rindu dengan hiruk-pikuk KL...wah...wah...wah...what a word!! dalam hiruk-pikuk tu ada kedamaian...

Sekarang, tengah fikir either to apply balik KL or just stay silence here...kalau tanya my mom opinion, dia suruh balik KL...kalau ikut hati akak, rasa macam esok jugak nak balik KL...

So, at the moment..akak stress and pressure giler...warghhhhhhh...what happen to me???

Note 39 - The Power of FaceBook (FB)

2008-08-23T07:34:00.000-07:00

Last Thursday - a friend of mine gave me a call...shocked jugak..apahal tetiba call akak ni? seriously, I'm not that type of glamorous ppl that everybody want to call...eheheheh...saja je disconnect dengan dunia luar ni..esp. since got married and had my baby, suddenly everybody starting to be so annoying...bragging about everything including their expensive inner wear...gilo ko apo...itu yang akak malas tu...eh..panjang pulak citer dia..

ok, back to our story...after a few bla..bla..bla...akak sakit tekak dek non hari tu..suara antara keluar dengan tidak aje..and this friend asking a permission to give my number to another friend of mine..this another friend came across my friend FB...and suddenly my friend saw my picture in this another friend FB..and this another friend is like "where's Aini?"...waaaaahhh..somebody is remembering me kaa?? and this another friend is my ex-schoolmate childhood friend...primary school ye kawan2...and suddenly I realized the power of this FB...terer betul orang yg create FB nih..sampai boleh jumpa kawan2 lama kan...so, I've decided to sign up for FB..memang betullah, it just 2 days of joining and I've found a few of my ex-schoolmate...so, dah update jugaklah kiranya akak...ermmmm..how I miss my old school days...but, I'd still with my decision to not too relate with dunia luar...duniaku telah dipenuhi with my beloved hubby and son...sikit-sikit utk yg lain bolehla kot!!

Note 38 - Iman Can Count

2008-08-22T05:47:00.000-07:00

2,3 hari lepas...to be precised it was on 19 August 2008..tengah duduk-duduk petang hari...sesambil lipat kain and layan tv..tiba-tiba dengar anak teruna ku bercakap sambil kira-kira jari...dengar betul-betul...ooooo....mengira rupanya....satu, dua, tiga, empat, lima, sepuluh...ehhhh...dah pandai anak mama...tapi, terus skip 6,7,8,9 la pulak...bila suruh dia kira sekali lagi...iman taknaklah....hehehehe....

Note 37 - Sekali Lagi...

2008-08-16T02:41:00.000-07:00

Malam ni ada fireworks shows kat picc...seronok jugak tengok..last tuesday, kitorg pegi tengok malaysian fireworks...rasa melayang sekali dengan bunga api tu...iman bila tengok dok cakap, cantik mama...cantik sangat!! colour yeaow...(yellow ye tuan2 dan puan2)...hehehehe...my baby dah besar....teringat time dia baru lahir...sekarang ni..lasak amat...

rasa2 macam seronok ke kalau plan untuk baby baru sekarang???

Note 36 - I'm Back...

2008-06-22T19:04:00.000-07:00

Kalau tak silap, last post was on March 2008...mmm..lama betul...sampai ada yang suruh announce off blog laa ... hehehehe...anyway, sekarang dah ok...internet kat rumah baru dah ok..bolehla ber'blog semula...apa ye nak citer...teringat lak kat blog sorang member ni..menulis secara point form...your blog really make my day laa...meleleh air mata baca blog kau!!! So, in a point form style...kita bagi summarize segala yang jadi dalam 5 bulan ni...mak aih..5 bulan? btol ke akak tak hapdet sampai 5 bulan nih??? Cuba korang teka gambar ape ni??

Bulan Mac :

My beloved husband birthday...there goes my money to a cute little lighter...lama dah janji nak bagi nih!!
PRU-12...aku ngundi kat mana ek tahun ni??

Bulan April :

Pegi Kuantan...bawak iman..bukan suka-suka...tapi, jadi panel interview...
keje banyak giler...busyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....

Bulan Mei :

Confirm dalam kenaikan pangkat ke jawatan hakiki...allritesss....
2 weeks after that, dapat another promotion...tapi, yg paling tak best happened..kena transfer ke Putrajaya...OMG...ape la korang tak tgk history akak ke....berhempas pulas mintak tukar balik KL...sekarang kena balik Putajaya pulak...tapi, after a long discussion with my hubby...dia setuju kitorang pindah rumah ke sana..rumah sekarang? tinggalkan sekejap la...so sad...rasa macam serba tak kena aje...
boss pun rasa serba tak kena jugak..ada unsur-unsur yang berbunyi, dok kat sini ajelah...ok apa...means tolak la promotion kan...tapi, macam tak best pulak...dah dapat naik, tolak...nanti ntah bila-bila pulak...

Bulan Jun :

13 Jun 2008 - pindah rumah baru...sunyinya putrajaya nih...rumah baru a.k.a rumah sewa lah ni...nanti nak beli rumah kat sini jugaklah...
area ni..sangat tenang, kereta tak ada...no hanky-panky on the road..you can drive your car as slow as u want or either...takde sape nak bising...sampai rindulah kat traffic jam dekat KL tu...
23 jun 2008 - my son 2nd birthday...kesian iman, no lavish and big shot celebration this year...baru sangat pindah...letih angkat barang pun belum habis lagi...so, kitorang celebrate bertiga aje..bawak iman pi makan pizza...iman just loves his creamy carbonara...present for iman this year? mama bought him a new barney bag..ayah bought 2 turtles..miki and robin...suka sangat iman dok kasi makan kat turtle 2 ekor tu...yang turtle tu pulak pantang nampak iman, gedik2 dalam akuarium dia tu...tau je dia tukang bagi makan dah datang...

Bulan Julai :

masih dalam fasa warm-up kat ofis baru...so different lah dengan tempat lama...kadang-kadang rasa lonely jugak...how i miss jalan TAR...

Bulan Ogos :

bulan kemerdekaan...aahahahah...
mmm..bulan ni belum abih lagi..so, i'd finish everything dululah...nanti kita tulih lagi okeh...

Note 35 - 9th Anniversary

2008-03-05T19:12:00.000-08:00

Today is 6th March 2008..And it was me and my hubby 9th anniversary...1st time kitorang jumpa was on 6th March 1999 and it was a cool date at One Utama...At the moment OU tu still kecik lagi..and Jusco je yang hidup kat sana...But as time goes by, OU dah naik 2nd phase...new wing...Some people called it 2U...hahahaha...okay, back to our sweet love story...we've met online..chatting la nih...not expected much from a cyber pal..bila jumpa on 6th March tu kita kawan...then kawan and still contacting each other....but something happens and in 2000, we've drifted apart...apesal agaknye ye..sampai hari ni never asked him about that! But, I still remember my friend words; kalau orang tu datang balik pada kita, means dia memang ditakdirkan untuk kita...so, bila our relationship continue balik in 2001, just think positive kita still kawan and I've never had a heart to hate him...Tapi, dari kawan, tidak disangka-sangka...berkekalan hingga ke hari ini, was married on 16th May 2003...
so, 9 years dah kita jumpa...9 happy years...and happier now with our sweet little cutie kid...Iman...
To my hubby, thanks a lot for the 9th happy years..and thanks a lot for accepting me for who I am...To our Iman, be good always..mama and ayah love u very much...

Note 34 - Kontroversi Kuih 70 Ketul....

2008-02-24T21:45:00.000-08:00

Mmmm.....nak dengar cerita tak...kebetulan time lunch ni bolehlah akak bukak cerita kontroversi kuih 70 ketul nih...mesti readers ingat ape ke hal le tak de citer lain ke nak tulih..citer kuih pulak...takpela...korang mesti baca supaya dapat dijadikan pengajaran satu hari nanti..jangan tak tau pulak..walaupun kuih2 ni cantik2, sedap2 belaka ... bila masuk perut, boleh kenyang...korang kena ingat kontroversi boleh tercipta jugak hanya kerana isu kuih nih....yelah, selagi manusia bernama manusia dan kuih bernama kuih...sebenarnya cik yam, kuih ni tak bersalah pun..cuma .....

ceritanya bermula begini...1 hari ofis ni buatlah mesyuarat dari pagi sampai ke petang...mestilah ada makan-makan kan...breakfast ada, lunch ada..termasuklah hidangan 70 biji kuih karipap dengan bingka ubi untuk minum petang...so, jawatankuasa mesyuarat adalah dalam 25 orang....ntah macam mana tetiba mesyuarat tu habis before lunch so petang tu kira kuih tu dihantar tanpa ada mesyuarat laaa...memangla org2 yg sediakan kuih ni dah plan nak agih2 kuih tu kepada semua staf...tak bulehla lokek walaupun yg urus semua tu admin...tak kisahla sikit sama merasa, banyak sama kenyang!! nak dijadikan cerita, boss ada 3 guests, org2 besar lah...so, akak suruh la bebudak ni hidang kuih yang berlambak tu kat boss and his guests...staf akak pun pegi meeting room and amat terperanjat katak nye lah dia...tengok kuih 70 ketul tu hilang licin abih begitu sahaja!! mana pegi...dia balik ke admin and cite kat kitorg...punyelah akak hangin! ni mana punye ****** la sudah ambik ini kuih..takkan main angkat aje tak tanya apa kot!! sesuka aaaaatiiiii aje....akak dengan disupport oleh 2nd big boss pun buat research cari ke mana hilangnya 70 ketul kuih tu...perlu diingat...ahli mesyuarat yang berhak atas kuih tu tak makan satu sen pun ye!! cari punya cari...terjumpa di satu tempat, ada sikit la dalam 15 ketul kot! so, 2nd boss suruh ambik balik balance yg lebih tu...org yg ambik kuih ni ala-ala bengang ler!! so, habisla misteri kuih yg hilang tu...

tetiba, petang tu tgh2 akak lepak buat kerja dalam bilik, terdengar le suara2 sumbang mengata...kononnya admin 'kutip' baki2 kuih tu...ulang suara...KUTIP yerr....helllloooooooooooooooooooooo.....ingat buruk lantak benar ke org admin...kalau takat makan free, tiap hari akak makan tau..dah tiap hari meeting..nama pun ketua bahagian...akak dengar je la komen2 tu...pastu dekat2 akak nak balik, dgn bangga nye akak keluar and berdiri depan pintu...mulut2 yang mengata baikkkk tadi tu terus senyap, tunduk and serba salah..yelah kutuk2 punye kutuk boss admin dengar laaaa.....akak terus bagi sepatah dua kata, kitorg ambik bukan nak makan, kitorg pun tak lapar kuih tu le...tapi kitorg ingat ada baki lagi dalam meeting room..nak hidang kat boss dgn tetamu dia...masa tu suara dah tinggi...nasib la korang semua....lepas tu terus aku masuk bilik!!

mereka2 yang kena tu adalah dalam 5-6 orang semuanya terus terdiam..sampai hari ni tak nak tegur aku! ehhh...hellooo...sape silap? sape salah? cuba korang pikir, kalau pemilik2 yang berhak atas kuih tu (ahli mesyuarat) tu tak halalkan kuih yg diorang makan, ada selamat kaaa???? so, jawapan nye tepuk dada tanya selera...bagi aku kalau setakat kuih free dari opis tu sampai nak kutuk2 sampai camtu sekali, ishhh..tak tau laaa...and for me, tak nak tegur? i don't care, bukan staf aku and aku dibayar utk kerja di sini!!! Gaji tetap aku punye....

Note 33 - Angin...

2008-02-02T20:49:00.000-08:00

Kali ni I would like to share the story of angin...Okay, apa angin tu sebenarnya...

Angin bertiup dari tempat sejuk ke panas. Siang hari, daratan dan laut dipanaskan oleh matahari, daratan cepat panas dari laut dan menghasilkan angin laut. Malam hari pulak, daratan lebih cepat sejuk dari laut dan menghasilkan angin darat...Tapi itu angin biasa...

What I really want to say ialah tahap angin dalam badan seseorang..Angin dalam badan ni boleh meningkat bila ada orang lain yang saja-saja je nak cari pasal...haaa..itu memang naik angin la jadinya!! So, baru-baru ni ada le seorang manusia ni which I really don't know who...datang rumah to promote a kind of MLM business...bukan malam, tapi Multi Level Marketing...As long as I remembered, I've never had interest in doing this MLM...malas, tak kuasa nak layan, takde masa, tak cukup tangan dan macam-macam alasan lagilah! Minah yang datang ni naik kereta mewah (ingat boleh kelabukan mata aku ke...)..Before this, had some experiences with promoter macam ni..dan belum pernah lagilah menyakitkan hati .. yang ni...mak aih! Memang sakit hati ahkak dibuatnya..Antara sebab-sebabnya:

1. Datang malam dan bla..bla...even kita tunjuk muka tak minat....dah le esoknya kitorang keje...pukul 11pm tak berganjak keluar lagi..gile ke hape..nak halau kang, takut kecik hati pulak!

2. Tengah2 dia bercerita, tiba-tiba anak aku kacau..biasalah, budak2 .. laaaaagi mau offer chocolate...konon very disturbing la my boy..aku apa lagi? cukup pantang kalau orang anggap anak aku pengacau...rasa macam nak tampar aje mulut dia!!

3. Bila kita reject, tiba2 dia boleh buat cerita berlagak dia...konon pegi melancong kompeni hantar 1 tahun 3-4 kali pegi oversea...so what..suka hati aku la nak join kau ke tak...we're talking about my money here okey, not your money!! Duit aku sukati aku...Duit kau sukati kau ler..aku tak mengemis duit kau...yang penting apa yang aku ada sekarang dah cukup bagus..kurang-kurang kalau ada orang nak mintak keje ke loan ke...kena mintak pengesahan orang2 macam aku ni ler...pegawai kerajaan kumpulan A....kau tu kalau anak kau nak masuk universiti nanti pun kena cari orang2 macam aku jugak! so, stop the bullshit..jangan nak BERLAGAK dengan aku!!

Dua kali orang ni datang rumah, memang hangeeennnnnnn 1 badan! angin yang ni aku tak tau le angin darat ke angin laut...Keanginan tu membuatkan aku call the company..lodge a complaint...

Lepas ni mungkin kalau ada lagi orang yang ajak join MLM ni..aku akan bagi warning dulu...kalau anda membuat saya sakit hati..dengan segala hormatnya anda dipersilakan GET OUT OFF MY FACE....silap-silap aku pegi company awak tu, complaint...senang cerita kan...So, kepada yang tengah berfikir nak ajak aku join MLM...heheheh..rentikan ler...

Okay, adios chaos...

My Birthday

2008-02-02T09:35:00.000-08:00

I should write this the day before my birthday kan..tapi, oklah...since I'm too busy with all the tasks at the office, and all the house chores at home...then bawak Iman pegi jab chicken pox lagi...sibuk..sibuk..and sibuk...actually, kind of messy sikitlah my life awal-awal tahun nih...Anyway, life goes on..and nah..another year for me...Makin tua la..but for me, age is just a number..normal number...makin lama, makin meningkat...and for myself makin meningkat usia, makin bertambah pengalaman...dan seharusnya makin bertambah amalan...

Pernah dengar orang cakap, usia yang meningkat bukan bermakna kita makin tua..tapi, makin muda sebab semakin dekat untuk menjadi kembali seperti kanak-kanak...korang pernah tengok tak orang-orang tua yang perangai masing-masing berubah kembali macam anak-anak kecil yang semuanya perlu dilakukan orang lain? well....hope all of u got what I meant....

Anyway, dapatlah present from my beloved hubby..apa dia? rahsia...takkan semua nak diexpose kat blog kan? mana boleh macam tu....

Well, happy birthday to me...semoga aku sentiasa dirahmati dan dilimpahi kurniaanMu Ya Allah....Amin...

Selamat Tinggal 2007 - Welcome New Year

2008-01-01T23:49:00.000-08:00

2007 dah berlalu...2008 dah datang...resolusi, misi dan visi yang baru lagi..but, honestly, never have azam baru since 5 years ago...reason - tiap tahun azam yang sama aje..so, no need to renew...just refresh, sit back and relax...oklah tu kan...

So, sepanjang 2007 :

- bertukar ke tempat kerja sekarang...with new friends, new staffs, new tasks...bukan senang jadik boss ni rupanya...even for 1 small department...

- my baby turns 1 year old...buatlah small celebration at KFC Wangsa Maju...don't worry my dear Iman, this year ada rezeki lebih mama gives you another big shot celebration...

- my baby dapat kaki...wahhh..1 rumah dia keliling and won't stop unless for sleep...

- diluluskan dalam jawatan berpencen..dah takde potong epf lagi...by 56 pencen (insyallah panjang umur), dapat pencen bulan-bulan...alhamdulillah...next year boleh withdraw epf...muahahahaha!!

- diluluskan pemangkuan dalam jawatan..another big syukur ...dapatlah increment gaji..rezeki anak...

- by end of 2007, JPA keluarkan Pekeliling, imbuhan tetap Perumahan untuk officers like me..naik lagi..another alhamdulillah...

So, as a conclusion for 2007...everything is good and well..what can I say just..Alhamdulillah...

And for 2008 :

- Tak mau mengharap terlalu banyak...cuma semoga kebahagiaan dan keindahan hidup ini berterusan selamanya...Amin Ya Rabbul Alamin...

3 Malam Tanpa Iman...

2007-11-06T03:56:00.000-08:00

Well..look at the title...macam tajuk lagu aje kan...

Hari ni nak cerita about nights I have to spend away from Iman..As long as I remembered, there are 3 nights I have to be away from my beloved son...Just imagine, sejak dari lahir Iman never slept with anybody else except me...So, bila kena outstation dah tentulah mama yang tak keruan kan..asyik teringat Iman...sedar-sedar tengah malam and realized alamak, jauhnya anak aku...hmmmm...hopefully, mama tak akan pergi outstation jauh-jauh lagi after this lah sayang...I can't stand being away from you...

Malam Pertama
27 June 2006 - 28 June 2006
4 days after born, Iman kena jaundice and terpaksa ditahan di wad DSH, Melawati..As a first time mom, mak aih...punyalah berdebar tengok anak bawah lampu biru, and yang paling tak best when my mum paksa balik, tomorrow we'll datang lagi...OMG...siapa nak jaga my baby...who's going to breastfeed him...luckily, esoknya Iman discharged...Legaaaa....

Malam Kedua
5 September 2007 - 6 September 2007
Kota Kinabalu...tension betul sebab kena pegi meeting kat KK...Well, KK was a nice place actually..but without my baby..everything seems to be bored...A night before departed, dah tentulah meleleh2 air mata...nasib baik 1 malam aje...

Malam Ketiga
3 November 2007 - 4 November 2007
Langkawi...again..kena tinggalkan Iman dengan nenek...hope he'll be a good boy...before pergi dah tension dan tak sabar nak balik...legaaaa...1 malam lagi...actually, it supposed to be 2 nights..tapi, hasil explaination yang panjang lebar kepada boss, berjaya dikurangkan kepada 1 malam..ingatkan tak payah pegi langsung...

Sedihkan cerita perpisahan nih...hehehehe..hopefully, lepas ni I'll be able to bring Iman with me each time going out..biarlah letih and berhabis...untuk Iman..everything will do...

Wajah Yang Kurindu...

Our Celebrity Look Alike Collage

2007-09-25T21:56:00.000-07:00

Lepas terjumpa yang look-alike meter tu...me pun macam teruja la pulak guna application tu..so, today me pun run test muka me, hubby and iman..check on celebrities look-alike dgn us...muka hubby 66% equals with rafael nadal (mmm..perasan ler nanti tu) and 57% sama dgn george w.bush (kah...kah..kah..)!ni kalau dia tengok the collage..harus dia angin satu badan nih!! hehehehe....

This was abang's collage...

This was mine...mmm..tiba-tiba keluar muka oprah winfrey la pulak...muahahahaha...macam nak gelak...I knew now that the application just check the posture of the face and the way you're smiling and laughing...

This was Iman's - our baby...mmm..iman look-alike Takuya Kimura laaa....fuyohhh..hensem tuu!!

Look-alike Meter

2007-09-25T21:28:00.000-07:00

Hari ni Cappy bagi link utk buat look-alike meter..so, me pun try lah buat rupa me, hubby and Iman..tengok Iman ikut rupa siapa...sekali tgk, wah..very the gempak this application..ada face recognition bagai...but, semua orang buat pun dapat 50-50....

hellooo!! I'm thinking of the real face recognition algo.was running here...off course la our son will look similar with his ayah and mama....kalau tidak nanti orang cakap anak siapa pulak kan...
Mmmm...but, from my personal opinion laa...Iman's eyes is just like me...semua orang pun cakap camtu..and the rest of his face...termasuk muka yang montel tu..just like ayah masa kecik-kecik...hehehehe...sampai tua ni pun ayah Iman montel...sorry ye bang!!

Keabadian Cinta

2007-08-23T19:14:00.000-07:00

Just wanna share the most sweetest song that I've love it so much. Why? Coz of the lyrics...It touch me deeply inside ...Whatever it is, I'm still enjoying this song ...A kind of evergreen for me ... And not so much to say, my husband dedicated this song for me on our wedding day..So, u know why it was very important to me, rite?? Just to tell him, I love him sooooo much...and pray that we'll be together forever...And now, we have our cute little Iman by our side everytime...mama & ayah love Iman very much...Remember that yaa....

A hundred words would not be enuff, And a thousand roses would be too less too express, How special you two are for me, Sweetheart...I love you from the bottom of my heart...I am so glad, I have you both!!

Selembut bicara

Sehalus sentuhanmu

Layangan pesonamu

Tak mungkin ku lupa

Jelingan pertama

Nan indah penuh makna

Akan kusahut cintamu itu

Bersama kita menuju bahagia

( korus )

Takkan lagiku sendiri

Kasih yang berlabuh kini

Terasa keabadian cinta kau beri

Mungkinkah daku bermimpi

Sebahagia begini

Ini bukan (nya) ilusi

Oh kasih

Seindah irama

Gemersik suaramu

Mengalun sepiku yang merindu

Akan kusahut cintamu itu

Bersama kita menuju bahagia( korus )

Tuhan merestuiBahagia begini

Kasihmu nan suci( korus )

Satu Harapan...

2007-08-21T00:39:00.000-07:00

When we speak about hope...I hope that some day...All my hopes and dreams will all come true...a light will shine for me and it will show where I'm heading to...
Harapan hanya akan tinggal harapan tanpa disertai usaha, doa dan tawakkal yang bersungguh-sungguh...And guys, I really like this song..actually the lyrics..and for my Iman Shabil, the music...dengar je lagu ni keluar TV for Manjalara...terus goyang-goyang to dance...Soooo cute...Semoga anak mama & ayah akan jadi anak yang soleh, baik dan sentiasa berjaya dalam hidup di dunia dan akhirat...Amin.....

Satu Harapan

Biarpun beribu halangan,
Mahu umpatan dari sesiapa,
Takkan ku meng-iyakan saja,
Teman semua, kata mereka...

Tiap hari ku baca,
Satu persatu cita-cita,
Mimpi yang terbit dari jiwa,
Berkhayalan di minda,

Satu harapan membara dan menyala,
Kan menyinari perjalananku,
Sejauh langit biru, takkan ku berpatah arah,
Harapan ku membawa kaki melangkah,
Merasau-rasau kehadirannya,
Kan terpahat namaku di ingatanmu.

Biar sekuat mana hati,
Menjerit hiba meronta-ronta,
Takku hanyut dalam lamunan,
Merintih, menitis air mata,
Harus ku tegar membawa,
Harapan ini ke alam nyata,
Agar bisa ku rai angan dan sejuta impian,

Satu harapan membara dan menyala,
Kan menyinari perjalananku,
Sejauh langit biru takkan ku berpatah arah,
Harapan ku membawa kaki melangkah,
Merasau-rasau kehadirannya,
Kan terpahat namaku di ingatanmu.

Harapan yang tersimpan kian lama,
Menghimpun segala pengorbanan,
Oh,suka-duka ku jalani,
Dengan tabah, tiada putus asa......

Warisan

2007-08-14T00:15:00.000-07:00

Hehehe..kenapa pulak le tiba-tiba hari ni aku rasa patriotik semacam? Pasal dekat nak merdeka kot? ke pasal aku nak pi interview utk HLP aku next year which is tolong..tolong proposal paper belum siap lagi...rasa mcm tak cukup nafas aje...hehehehe...susah betullah ini macam!

Ataupun sebab aku tiba2 terdownload lagu Warisan - Sudirman ni? mmmm..ntahlah..yang pastinya kita dah 50 tahun merdeka...tapi, adakah sifat & perangai kita benar2 merdeka semerdeka negara kita? Itu...sendiri mau ingatla.....

Tapi, untuk segala semangat yang ada untuk memajukan diri...untuk segala cita-cita yang pernah diimpikan..untuk segala harapan dan impian semua orang terhadap kita...untuk semua yang pernah dicapai....untuk segala kerja keras selama ini....untuk semua jasa bakti orang lain terhadap kita...ingat, kitalah penyambung warisan!!!

Disini lahirnya sebuah cinta
Yang murni abadi sejati
Disini tersemai cita cita
Bercambah menjadi warisan

( korus )Andai ku terbuang tak diterima
Andai aku disingkirkan
Kemana harusku bawakan
Kemana harusku semaikan cinta ini

Betapa
Dibumi ini ku melangkah
Keutara selatan timur dan barat
Ku jejaki

Aku
Bukanlah seorang perwira
Gagah menjunjung senjata
Namun hati rela berjuang
Walau dengan cara sendiri
Demi cinta ini( ulang korus )

Ku ingin kotakan seribu janji
Sepanjang kedewasaan ini
Ku ingin sampaikan pesanan
Aku lah penyambung warisan

PHD - Ready or Not?

2007-07-30T05:17:00.000-07:00

I've got the email from JPA...said that I should write a proposal paper on my research...had to finish everything before 20th August 2007...then got to go for an interview...Waaa...dapat interview lah....tapi, am I really..really ready for it? Proposal paper tak buat lagi..baru 1 page..the email said shud be not less than 10 pages...So, I decided to call the officer...sajalah nak tanya betul ke 10 pages...and there...betullah... hehehehe! I'm lucky..very lucky... a young officer, just 3 years in service than got the interview for pursuing my PHd...but, it just an interview...dapat tak dapat belum tentu...but from the way they are talking, macam susah aje...since I'm young..off course they are going to give an opportunity for a senior officers...max age was 45...next year it'll be 40...the candidates were about **...and the creme de la creme is about ** ...so, dapat ke tak agaknya yer!! tapi, nak buat proposal tu satu hal jugak...it just a big issue for me...takut tak sempatlah! berkejar degan kerja yang banyak tu...then I've to selit2 time to write the proposal...banyak tu..just like chapter 1 in the thesis...warghhhhhh...nak nangis!!!!

Kursus

2007-07-23T22:08:00.000-07:00

Dalam setahun, semua kakitangan kerajaan kena pergi kursus at least 7 days...So, ramai jugaklah officer yang muda-muda ni berebut nak pegi kursus, baik kursus kat dalam negeri (selalunya ini ajelah yang aku layak pun...hehehe) takpun kursus kat luar negeri (bila tahun la nak merasa pergi nih..takpelah!!)...Aku pulak, suka pergi kursus sekali-sekali ni sebab boleh release tension..keje kat opis banyak beb!! lepas tu boleh tambah network, kenal ramai orang sekursus...semua senior officer..kita yang baru boleh belajar dengan diorang nih!! Lepas tu boleh balik awal...inipun best jugak..sebab takde punch card kursus nie..pastu, boleh dapat sijil...so, this yr aku dah pegi 14 days kursus...oklah tu kan...100% lebih dari expected kursus...legalah sikit lepas nih..tak payah nak kejar2 kursus dah...boss pun dah bunyi, apesal aini banyak sgt kursus...laaaa....camno citer??? memang dah kena pergi 7 hari kursus, bila terlebih orang bising pulak, dah semua kursus yang aku apply dapat..takkan tak nak attend pulakkan? sape salah nih? aku ke? boss ke? kursus ke???

Kerja...Kerja dan Kerja....

2007-07-16T19:46:00.001-07:00

Agaknya memang semua orang dalam dunia ni..celik aje mata kerja...kerja dan kerja...Kalau tengok workstation aku ni penuh berlambak kerja-kerja yang mengejar dateline...Apa itu workstation? Workstation ialah stesen kerja dan stesen kerja adalah workstation vice versa...Dolu-dolu before ada benda alah PC ni kan, macam mana orang buat kerja agaknye? Adakah workstation ini menambah mudah kerja atau menambah susah kerja kita hari ini? Entahlaaaa......

List of works need to be taken care of:

3 Minutes of meetings
Surat Panggilan Mesyuarat
Establish penggunaan fail baru
ReOrg Struktur
Kursus-Kursus Orang

Oittt...banyaknyee...bila nak siap?? Yang penting...esok aku kursus...Bye byelah kejap keje-keje tu semua!! See you next week....

Kereta Pujaan Ku...

2007-07-15T20:26:00.000-07:00

wahhh...very interesting to see many cars on the road...selalu aku pikir, banyak betul duit orang malaysia ni kan pakai kereta mewah-mewah..kalau 10 years back, susah nak tengok kereta-kereta mewah ni OTR. But, nowadays..as quality of life increased, bersepah exclusive cars tu...setakat accord, perdana v6, bmw...biasa jer lepak atas jalan tu..kat used cars pun berlambak...it's been like everybody can drive this elegant cars...by the way one of my staff is driving v6..wahhh...ganas betul!!

well, actually i'm also interested in buying a new cars...not so new lah..2nd hand pun ok as long as I get my dream car...what is my dream car? first I'd like to have Perdana V6...lepas tu tak jadi .. and I'd decided to have either kia carnival, odyssey, stream or sort of that mpvs..then tak jadi lagi...now I'm dreaming of cefiro v6...cantik giler!! tapi, roadtax for every year was about rm2010...mahal gilerr!!

agaknya bila boleh nak beli new car ni kan? before raya or after raya?

or after got result for my Phd application by end of this November...

Fikir punye fikir buatkan aku mengantuklah!!

Iman's Stuff..

2007-07-12T18:39:00.001-07:00

Around June, I had to went for a course in Kelantan..so decided to bring Iman along with his ayah...Packing punya packing...I'm realized that banyaknya stuff to bring..packed here, unpacked there..sama je itemnya! hmmmm...baru sorang anak.......kalau 2, 3 orang? harus kena beli van la aku lepas nih...hehehehe...how's ayah? mama's suggestion to buy a van??

List of Iman's stuff :

A basket of formula milk, thermos, water bottle, nestum, bowl, milk bottle, bread, biscuits...bla...bla...bla...wuishhh...banyak betul!!

A bag full of baju - baju tidur, baju jalan, baju basahan, toiletries, towel, face towel, small pillow, blanket...bla...bla...bla...

A small bag of toys, books and blaa...bla...bla...

Waaa...so many things to be packed & unpacked everytime we went out of town...

Saje-saje jer...

2007-07-12T06:49:00.000-07:00

Di keheningan malam..chewahhh..iman dah tido sempatlah mama dia login blog, update apa-apa yang patut kejap...

Mesti korang pelik baca blog ni...macam mana aku dah boleh ada anak sedangkan cerita pasal pregnant..ini namanya flashback blog...aku akan cerita pasal pregnant, pasal life, pasal suami, pasal anak, pasal family dalam blog ni...jadi semua cerita akan bercampur-campur...tapi still ikut turutan life aku...

hmmm...haaa...hari ni aku terbaca komen somebody yang cakap kalau anak bercakap dulu daripada berjalan..itu tandanya anak tu bijak...ye ke? mmmm..ntahlah...terpulangla pada korang untuk menentukan....

ape lagi yer...oklah..selamat malam....

3rd Trimester.

2007-07-09T01:35:00.000-07:00

On 1 fine morning, we've went for my check-up - 7mths check-up...so, as usual Dr.Hakim will do the scanning..and we're so excited to confirm the gender of the baby.

Dah twice scanned before, and gynae still detect we're going to get a girl..anything lah for me..as long as I'll get a baby that I've adore & want for so much time...

But this time, suddenly...Dr.hakim cakap....ooo, you'll get a boy..tu telur dia..dia dah turn around and shows everything...me & hubby apa lagi..terus gelak tak berhenti..suddenly, teringat kat our purchase made before..baju tidur kaler pink...then the gynae tanya, why? kenapa gelak?ooo...it must be the baju..ayah dah beli baju kaler pink ke?? i
t's okaylah..sebab nowadays boys can wear pink..its a style & trend...

Hik..hik...hik...

2nd Trimester

2007-07-09T01:27:00.001-07:00

In this very 2nd trimester...

1. Muntah masih teruk - lari pergi toilet lepas lunch & dinner selamba aje...
2. Tak boleh makan atau dengar langsung Mamak's Stall, food etc. lalu depan kedai tu kat rumah pun boleh buat aku pening & muntah sepanjang hari.
3. Balm Panas Cap lang & Minyak Yuu Yee Cap Limau - tak boleh berenggang dengan segala macam minyak panas. rasa berat je kepala, terus sapu kat dada..berlarilah aku ke toilet..muntah!

Letih la kan muntah sampai lembik nih...tapi nak buat macam mana...whether I like it or not...

eh...eh..by 5 mths pregancy, gynae cakap maybe I'll get a daughter..hehehehe...dapatlah bagi pakai skirtkan...

dengan penuh excited...terus kitorg beli sepasang baju tidur kaler pink...oooo...sooo excited...

ini gambar masa pergi meeting kat kuala terengganu...tak nampak sgt perut tu! still boleh pakai t-shirt size xl...

tapi, sepanjang pregnant memang aku tak suka langsung-langsung ambik gambar...rasa macam tak cantik langsung dalam gambar!!!

Transfer to Putrajaya

2007-06-18T23:07:00.000-07:00

1 January 2006

Adoi...satu kementerian pindah putrajaya...sangat tidak indah hidupku...I can't drive, I can't smell...asyik pening, mabuk & muntah and the still expect me to transfer there. Tapi, nak buat macam mana...kerja tetap kerja..pindah pun pindahla..Ministry bagi bus utk travel...terpaksalah naik kat jelatek every morning 6.15 am dah keluar rumah, terus hubby hantar ke Jelatek, and petang pukul 7.30 pm baru sampai rumah. Masa tu memang seksa, rumah untuk mandi dan tidur sahaja...Puas aku mintak transfer tapi tak dapat. Reason is alaaa..tak lama lagi u nak cuti bersalin...oooo....come onlah! cuti bersalin is on june..now is march/april...bagi ajelah....huwaaaaa.....

1st Trimester

2007-06-18T23:02:00.000-07:00

Sangat susah....very difficult for me to adapt with my new life now..Realized that I'm pregnant so I have to do everything at slow pace...Me? Slow pace? no Way!!

Start my 1st trimester with morning sickness, tak boleh makan semua benda...except fresh milk & corn flakes. Bangun tido malam-malam pukul 2am, nangis-nangis sebab pedih ulu hati..Now I know kenapa Tuhan bagi anak lambat kat aku...

Checkup berjalan dengan lancar...

Yang curiousnye, bila perut aku nak besar ni?? kecik je...mcm tak pregnant jer...hehehhe...

Mama & Ayah?

2007-04-23T19:56:00.000-07:00

Date : 9 Novermber 2005

On 1 fine wednesday morning...hubby dah siap-siap belikan UPT for me to test..tapi, I'm just soooo not ready..even dalam hati rasa macam pregnant kot aku nih! but, sometimes u can't get what u wish for right...so, since I'm going back to work tomorow after cuti raya...better I took the risk & buat test tu! Takut sangat nak tengok...siap kejut hubby bangun suruh tengokkan sebab rasa macam tak percaya jer bila nampak 2 clear lines...Ya Allah, betullah aku pregnant la! You've answered me...Amin..Alhamdulillah...Terus pegi klinik to double check and confirmed the pregnancy...Doktor cakap, congratulations & you're 6 weeks pregnant...

My EDD : 26 June 2006

Ramadhan & Syawal yang Membawa Seribu Keberkatan

2007-04-23T19:34:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan 2005 telah berlalu..well, aku puasa penuh this year. Syawal pun disambut macam biasa ... Most people told me that I might be pregnant since my menstrual is 2 weeks late. But, i'm not hoping for it ... takut frust lagi...so, just continue my life & my raya celebration as usual. But, the weird things is I'm starting to feel awful everytime I saw food...alamak, camner nak raya kalau camni? Dah segala rendang, ketupat tu rasa semacam jer tengok! Aku rasa macam food tu nak makan aku balik...errrr...so weird!! And another sign, I'm feeling uncomfortable to wear my baju raya...well, it was my choice and now it seems that I really hate the baju...waaaaa..what's wrong with me...

Last but not least is, I'm starting to vomit everytime I'm eating...harus kurus diriku! And the unexpected is my hamster is giving birth to 6 babies...hmmm...kenapa yer!!

Journey to get a baby?

2007-04-23T01:16:00.000-07:00

It was a long journey and a half years efforts....haaaa...hambik situ..lama giler! The story starts with:

1. Traditional method

We was being recommended by MIL to this bidan kampung. So, just had an appointment with her .. She said that I should get myself a massage since my womb is high...cam mana nak explain peranakan tinggi in english? so, 3 kali berturut-turut this nenek massage my stomach..and gave me air kunyit to drink...yaghhhh...sungguhla tak sedap rasanya..tak larat nak minum tapi hubby tunggu kat sebelah...minumla yang!! waaaaa....nak nangis...bitter taste..bitter memory..oklah, nak anak punye pasal....

2. Modern method

I've registered ourself at LPPKN...So, had to wait alomost 7 mths to get an appointment...lama betul!! macam-macam test dia bagi kat aku & hubby...last but not least, the gynae told me that I might be suffering from polysistic ovary...hmmm, research..research...the gynae recommended me to undergo for treatment & straightly IUI...Well, didn't think too much at that time .. strongly agreed...Tapi, when the times for IUI comes, telur masih tak matured & had to drop off the trial..Melalak-lalak lagi aku hari tu...Hubby cakap it's OK..kita cuba lagi after this...I'm really stressed, terus malas nak pegi...

3. Herbs method

This is our last resort...chinese herbs & medication...jalan-jalan kat shopping mall, terserempak dengan 1 chinese lady jual madu lebah & macam-macam barangan dari lebah...so, she suggested us to try madu lebah (original) and bee pupa..taste like keropok but it's not good as keropok...me & hubby makan, jadikan daily routine...finally, comes ramadhan 2005...

More happy stories to share....

Children for Me?

2007-04-23T01:08:00.000-07:00

Well, frankly ..when everybody around me is speaking about their children, I'm really stressed out so I've to chickened away from them. It's just because, that I didn't pregnant after almost 2 years of marriage. Aku mula salahkan diri. Every menstrual, comes along with deraian air mata..Sedih sangat-sangat sehinggakan aku rasa memang Tuhan takkan bagi anak pada kami. I can't bear to look at my hubby face...his eyes reminds me that he just want...much..much want the kid of his own...Orang mula bercerita and berkata...Yah, it was a difficult part actually...Am I wrong? I didn't take any birth control pills before...I didn't say that I dont want any children..it's just not the right time for me to have a baby..agaknyalah! my hubby always encourage me..don't worry..maybe we're just not ready for it so Tuhan didn't want to burden us...maybe...but I'm really stressed out...

Yayyyy...habis DPA Course

2007-04-23T01:04:00.000-07:00

Yayyy for me..alhamdulillah dengan jayanya dah habis the course...so, I can continue my masters degree in UM...it's almost 3 years and still can't finish it...sedih betullah aku! And also continue my work in SPTB...well, I really miss my work station...hehehehe...and my life as a wife to my hubby..Anyway, thanks abang for understand me a lot! I really love you...Lepas ni, kita work on how to get your own children pulak, kay!! hehehehe.....

Sad..sad..and Sad..

2007-04-23T00:28:00.000-07:00

Rezeki kerja sudah terjawab..rezeki anak belum lagi nampaknya...it was very sad bila tengok orang yang kahwin lambat dari kitorg pun dah pregnant..and we still berdua..tapi, I've to plan too since I've to go to my 6 moths PTD course..ada kursus tentera, polis, bomba and bla..blaa..blaa...insyallah lepas jer kursus, kami akan berusaha kuat...tapi, rupanya banyak cabaran dan dugaan nye yer...hmm....sob...sob...

My 1st Day as Government Officers

2007-04-23T00:24:00.000-07:00

Lepas je tau berjaya, aku dihantar kursus kat INTAN Sg Petani for 2 weeks. Course name : PTD Unggul...

habis jer PTD Unggul, my first ministry is Kementerian Tanah & Pembangunan Koperasi (now it was Sumber Asli & Alam Sekitar). My job description : surat-menyurat, minit mesyuarat, kertas kerja and bla..bla..Started to enjoy my work...

Interview As Government Servants

2007-04-23T00:16:00.000-07:00

Susah rupanya nak jadi government servants nih..interview dia bukanlah susah, but the interviewer tu macam saja-saja nak provoke kita..
My 1st interview - as PSM (Peg.Sist.maklumat) : I've answered everything about database, computers & so on excellently...tapi, bila dia tanya on monarchy system...alamak, blur habislah..tak tau langsung! so, at the end of the day I know that I didn't make it. My instinct told me...

My 2nd interview - as PTD : I've going thru the assessment centre and was chosen to undergo for the interview. Interviewer sangat baik. Tak banyak sangat yang ditanya, many questions was about the things I knew...hmm, I'm relieved! But, the question that I remember about K3P...Kump Pembaca, Pendengar & Penyampai if I'm not mistaken..masa tu mana ada lagi K3P tu..aku beria-ria jer menjawab..chewah, macam la terer sangat...

But alhamdulillah, rezeki kahwin kata orang...I've got the job as PTD..and I've no idea on earth of what is this job is about..camner tuh??

Result Exam PTD

2007-04-23T00:12:00.000-07:00

3 months after the exam, the result was released thru the net. Woww...I'm passed and have to join assessment centre. Without any information on that, blindly & bluntly I was there in Intan Jalan Ilmu. Meet many friends...Had to join for 3 days full of rest & stress...kenapa ye stress? ooo...sebab aku tak tau ape kriteria yang dikehendaki untuk jadik seorang PTD. Dahlah aku tengah frust sebab tak boleh jawab elok-elok masa interview untuk jawatan PSM...I'm a CS graduate, off course I'm looking forward to that IT, programming kind of jobs...So, masa assessment, I give my best...Hubby cakap, mana tau kot rezeki aku kat sini...so, just give it a try...Kalau dapat, alhamdulillah..kalau tak dapat, tak rugi..but it was an experiences to me...

Note 5 - Exam PTD

2007-04-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

29 May 2003 - I've to sit for PTD exam. Never came across my mind nak jadi PTD. Tapi, just test my luck...manalah tau ada rezeki since my contract with UM is going to over soon, by next March 2004...So, pegilah kat High School Setapak..dengan inai yang masih merah di jari...feewitt..aku baru kahwin lah! With my full effort and heart, aku jawab all the 5 papers...Resultnya...insyallah nanti akan ku beritahu..

Note 4 - HoneyMoon

2007-04-22T20:33:00.000-07:00

If this is what we called honeymoon then it would be like that...the reason, me & hubby didn't planned to go anywhere at all after the kenduries..dengan letihnya, nak berkemas lagi...all of us once heard of the proverbs raja sehari kan...so, u can always be a king sehari only...on that day, makan pun boleh bersuap...ni kes tengah pakai inai kat jari lah ni!! then, with the kuali, periuk...mak aih! we've to settle it ourselves!

Then, on one fine wednesday, 21 May 2003...hubby asked me to go some place where we can relax our mind & body...it's not about romantika d'amor orang baru lepas kahwin..well, I admit..its one the agenda ..but it's more to relax, to keep cool...so, kitorang pegi PD ..yang paling dekat sekali...we've stayed in one room apartment - sunshine apartment for a week ... equipped with dapur, kuali, periuk and bla..bla.. stay kat tingkat paling tinggi...tingkat 12..aku dah ler gayat...terasa melayang2 jer..tapi, best since we can enjoy the ocean view..and then ada lak swimming pool...so, everyday..morning we went to the sea...afternoon, we went into the pool, night went to jalan jalan cari makan area PD...so good... we're very lucky because that time is not school holidays nor public holidays...so, senanglah lodging...

and more good news to come...eh, aku tak pregnant pun after the huney moon...not expecting in waktu terdekat!

Note 3 - Alam Perkahwinan

2007-04-22T19:43:00.000-07:00

Date : 16 May 2003
Time : 5pm (after Asar )

hatiku berbunga-bunga or is it there's a flower inside my heart? should check with my proverbs dictionary...today is our wedding day...i'm going to be a bride to my bridegroom-to-be...eh, aku nak jadi isteri oranglah! aku yang ganas dan tak glemer langsung ni nak jadi isteri orang...it was hard for me to imagine myself in a wifey shoes...can I be good wife? and can my darling be a good husband for me?

Harapan ku for this wedding:

1. To be a good wife..
2. To get a good husband...

Semoga Tuhan akan merestui dan merahmati kehidupan kami pada hari ini dan seterusnya. Dan semoga jodoh ini akan berkekalan sehingga ke akhir hayat kami nanti.

From inside my pengantin room, off coursela my mum had to prepare everything for me..kalau nak ikutkan aku ni, takde bilik-bilik pengantin nih...aku tau aper... I've heard the aqad nikah ... Abah yang nikahkan aku..hmm...terasa sedih di hati...sebab tak sampai seminit, aku dah jadi milik orang lain...If before I've had to obey my parents, now it's time I've to add another person in my obedient list...betul ke ape yang aku merepek nih! so, sah lah aku menjadi isteri kepada suamiku...

kenduri was being held for 3 days...16 may - nikah, 17 may - kenduri in my place, 18 may - kenduri in hubby place...after all the 3 kenduries, aku pengsan..letih oooo....kena mekap-mekap tu ingat tak letih ke??

Note 2 - Alam Pertunangan

2007-04-22T19:23:00.000-07:00

Date : 6 October 2002

I'm engaged...to someone I love..We've engaged...we've engaged...I couldn't believe this...Tak sangka sungguh, ada jugak orang yang sanggup share his life dengan aku...Aku ni dahla tak reti romantik-romantik...tak glemer..but, he's still accept me...and of course la I'm also accepting him...

A day before the engagement...aku kena keje la pulak! Everybody is membebel at me...the original planning was, engagement date is on 5 October but since it was a working day for me...had to postpone it next day! But, it was only engagement...bukannya nikah pun...Time nikah nanti, i'm going to finish my cuti rehat....huh, its worth kan??

Note 1 - Alam Baru Bermula

2007-04-22T19:16:00.000-07:00

I met with my hubby-to-be in 6 March 1999...while I was doing my practical training in KL for 6 months. How we met? Hmmm....it was Cinta IRC...my hobby is chatting..and I've met a lot of people through this relay chat...Everything went smoothly well...the relationship well, is not burden me since I can handle between this 2 - my study (next sem. will be my final sem & I'm going to do a lot of work regarding my project, thesis, bla...bla...and blaa.....) and our relationship. At first it was PJJ lah, I'm in south of Malaysia & he is in KL...It was a very good & beautiful experiences for me since I've never had any love affair before...huh, cinta monyet adalah...cinta dewasa ... never! What I was thinking before is, aku nak belajar...bukan nak bercinta...Nah, I'm doing well in my studies & I should move on with my life kan? Semua orang ada rasa nak bercinta & dicinta kan...