Children for Me?

Well, frankly ..when everybody around me is speaking about their children, I'm really stressed out so I've to chickened away from them. It's just because, that I didn't pregnant after almost 2 years of marriage. Aku mula salahkan diri. Every menstrual, comes along with deraian air mata..Sedih sangat-sangat sehinggakan aku rasa memang Tuhan takkan bagi anak pada kami. I can't bear to look at my hubby face...his eyes reminds me that he just want...much..much want the kid of his own...Orang mula bercerita and berkata...Yah, it was a difficult part actually...Am I wrong? I didn't take any birth control pills before...I didn't say that I dont want any children..it's just not the right time for me to have a baby..agaknyalah! my hubby always encourage me..don't worry..maybe we're just not ready for it so Tuhan didn't want to burden us...maybe...but I'm really stressed out...